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2007-12-12T21:21:00.000-08:00

HELLO ! What a hard days for me . Why is this all happening to me ? Why you making my life miserable ? Why ?? I don't want to lose him . If can i want to be with him forever i can . But you making me like i'm a doll here . Huh ?? Please can you let him off ? I just don't want to fight with you because of a boy . But making me fight for it . Now i'm really confused over this things . Lucky me discover it first . If not i don't think i don't know about you both . Just can you please let him off ? Before you giving me this problem there's one problem but she let him off because she knows how i feel . but you don't understand anyways . How could you hurt your own friend ? Kae lah if you were in my place , would you be hurt ? Would you fight for it ? Say this to yourself . Open your eyes wide . Please just one more time i say could you please let him off ?? PLEASE !! I really2 beg you for this . I JUST DON'T WANT TO LOSE HIM ! I'M SCARED THAT I LOSE HIM !!! kae lah till here[kecik misshimbadly]

2007-12-11T03:22:00.000-08:00

HELLO ! . And the thought of me he was "last Saturday . We have fun at Sentosa . YEAH ! haha . But bored ler i when home with my parents . Haiish . But waited for them for 1 hr and 5 min . Leg until cramp siah . Wanna cry but tahan lah sehy . Hees =) . But still enjoy the fun , but first i need to say SORRY to him because on that day i have done too many wrongs to him . Really2 sorry my DEAR . I don't really meant to . Okay now there is a big problem . I don't know how t settle it . It's making me CONFUSED ! . As if like in this world there is no other guys that "she" wanna talk with . Why she could do this to me . I know that "she" treated him just as a friend , but i don't know if there is something going on . Like i say that i don't want anyone to interrupt . But "she" interrupt it already . I still love him . And "she" have a boy . But why seh wanted to disturb . It's just make me confusing . This world is full of others boy but why ? . I don't think "she" is bored that makes her want to talk to someone . I just wanna have a close-up . I don't want things to be big . And i don't even want to fight just for a boy . Derr !! Today was really a sickening day for me . I'm sick and someone gave me even sick . I waited for him from 1.30 till 5 . He did not appear . Before he offline he say that he was "otw" going here . So i was excited and happy . But the things is why is he too late . At about 2 plus he call me asking me if i want a cigarettes . I say to him just take arh" . But there was no his appearance . So the lesson is that i just can't believe boys possibly . They are just making a empty promises . Like shit ! . From now on i wouldn't want to believe any boys . It just make my heart gone . Is that what boys want ? Huh ? Is it ? To make all girls heart to be hurt ? And they surely be happy . Right boys ? If you don't want all girls to say this things to you . Proof to me , say it right to my face that you won't make any empty promises . I'm just sick of you boys . Now i really2 know what boys are . They just can't get angry in Malay verbs is this "mcm tk bleh kena cket" . That what i means . If they get angry they want to show their face . Like Fuck Off lah . All this things that i'm talkin about is not that i'm threatening you boys . But i just saying what deep in my hearts feel . It really makes me hurt . So boys out there please don't get angry with me for saying all this things . I'm not asking you to be angry . I'm asking you to WAKE up . Bucked up boys ! Please just for the sake of girls . Can ? If can thank you so much ! If cannot ? You are just not fit to be a Boy ! till here then[kecik misshimbadly]

2007-11-22T00:38:00.000-08:00

hello,it has been 6 days me in singapore not seeing him.haiish.so lonely without him here beside me.i'm bored here.hope we can see each other on his 26,27 and 28 to enjoy before my turn to go for holiday.hope we can enjoy this 3 days.just to make me happy and not worry for him again like now.this time before he go i only spent just one day with him but don't do anything talk only not more than that.at least i make the last kiss to him.at that night we plan to talk we talk for a while suddenly he hang up.i call him back he say tomorrow in the morning can we talk so i say okae lah.in the morning i waited for his call no calls at all.lastly i know that he already leave singapore.what a sad thing for me.i keep saying faster lah come back.i also sometimes dream that he cam back but it is not there at all.at night i will be finding the star to keep me reminds of him.sometimes there no star at all.i will be sad at that point.haiish.wish he came back this sunday at for the 3 days he will be there for me before i leave singapore.till here then[kecik miss him badly]

2007-11-20T00:06:00.000-08:00

hey there.i'm bored now.he's not here beside me now.he's gone to holiday for 1 week haiish.i don't know if he come back to singapore he want to meet me anymore or not.now when he have his bicycle he don't even think of me.how lonely i am without him there.i just don't know what to say.he has the choice to make.i have no rights to make him not playing with his bicycle.he can make the choice himself not me.is just that i think he have not understand me very that well.if he knows me that well i think he know what a girl want from a boy.all girls want boys attention.not that 24 hrs only with a girl at least we make time.sometimes i thinking about this it just make me cries.i just don't know what is the thing he wants.is just make me confused.the place for me to share my feelings to is only him.nobody understand my feelings unless him but he is just not there for me.is he ?.i'm just feel lonely now not without him beside me.i put all my trust to him i gave him what i can.is it not enough for him to appreciate it.is it ?.what else can i gave him ?.i don't want this matter to be big.we can settle itself.but i don't know ho to talk to him over this thing to just make me peace of it.everynight i'm crying thinking of this thing.just hope this thing could be settle.till here[kecik miss him badly]

2007-11-12T03:44:00.000-08:00

HELLo here to write,what stories eh i have here.lots of things happening nowdays.i'm STRESSED bout it.don't know what to do some more.some jealous the got problems.haiish don't know what to say.some also think the other way of me.when it comes to jealousy it is difficult for us to recover it back.i just don't want others to think that sometimes i'm making them jealous because of one person like me.i know because of this thing happen it make him jealous.even though he say to me he's not jealous,but i can feel what he feel.i can feel if he is hurt,angry,sad,mad,happy.i can know all this.is just i think sometimes he couldn't understand me.i need him to understand me more better inside.he say that he's not good enough for me,but to me no matter what i wouldn't change my heart to love other person.all my heart is given just for him.no one else.is it true that THERE WIIL BE NO US SOON??haiish i'm NO USE TO HIM ANYMORE right??somemore he say that OUR END ISH NEAR,TREASUER WHILE U CAN.is it true?does he want us to go diff ways,i don't want to leave him i still love him no matter what.i know the reason he wrote that because for him he is not good enough for me.other boys whom like me buy for me lots of things and the are good to me.but to him he is bad like to beat me up.actualli i don't mind he doing taht to me at least he have shown his true colours to me and i can know him very well enough.love dosen't matter what it is only matter the heart of the person.i can feel if the person love me or not or trying to make use of me or using me.outside may look good but inside may look bad.but for him outside he look bad but inside he look good.i do really love him.is just that sometimes i think he don't really understand my feelings deeply inside.i'm sure he will get to know more bout me better one day.what can i do now to make him understand me very well?haiish i'm thinking over it.till here then ended by[kecik miss him badly]

2007-10-25T21:08:00.000-07:00

yesh exam over now waiting for the result..i have been promoted to SEC 2..wee!!i'm happy..now is holiday i'm MISSING HIM!!!lucky before the school close we enjoy our day together..the day on the thursday when i last seeing him before going home i CRY!!DON'T LEAVE ME TAU!!missing him too much it really makes me can't stop crying..I LOVE HIM TOO MUCH!!yesterday funky nutz got a performance at jurong country club..we have a great time there..this holiday also got PRACTICE lermak..lucky 4 practice only..missing him is what i always do..can't take it..sometimes i'm finding thing to HUG it..u imagine for 2mths and 6 dys we can't see each other..how can i take it..it has been a hard time for me..mish him badly..PLEASE help me!!what cn i do??w3e!!i enjoy my life with him..i cn't spend out 6 and 7 mth cause of this holidays..MISH UE ALWAYS MY DEAR,BARI!!!ended by [kecik missh him badly]

2007-09-29T19:56:00.000-07:00

it has been a long time i have nbr write..nw i want to write..there is a lot of story happens this few weeks..sometimes it was sad,happy,enjoyable..since last2 week i and him have been together always..we always hang out together..we often fight but one day it really makes me hurt..in the firsdt place i badmood bcoz of some of them disturbing me..then when he console me i ignore him..then at one point he was tired of consoling me bcoz i nbr entertain him at all..he paly football..but while he playing i stare at him..i don't know why..haish..before he was going home..i heard he say something DIA NK BLEK TU DIA NYE PSL ARH..GI MAMPOS..i ignore it..i just sit there doing nothing..in a sudden he took the ball and kick towards me..after kicking that ball he kick the lift..by trying to stop me from saying badwords i cry..that was the first time i cry..my god brother ask waht had happen..i ju kept quiet..at about what time he msg me saying he was really sowie..he didn't mean to do that stupid things to me..but it was a wasteful i cannot reply him..how minutes he came down..saw me crying i try to avoid from him looking at my face but it really cannot..i cry and cry until my eyes turn red..argh!!what a shameful..he say to me agaim he really2 sowie..i say nbr mind..he wanted to go to the shop..after he came back i comunicate him by sms him saying in the phone..he was so STUPID..he go and but penknife and cut 3 lines..i was really shcok to see that..the more see that i cry..haish..it was so the stupid of him..what to do he already do it..i have no choice..but when eerytime i saw the mark on his hand i started to think back over the thing..my god brother don't want to forgive him for what he has do to me..but the thing is i'm the one who is invovle..not him..i have forgiven him too but my god brother say he would not forgive him at all..i like what the FUCK!!haish..i have nothing to say to him anymore..walau!!i'm STRESS thinking about this thing over2 and over again..sometimes i cannot concetrate on my exams,,i hope my god brother will forgive him,,i really sad..yesh exam EOY HAS ENDED..wee!!!i'm happy..monday and tues not schooling..on mon we gonna go hang out..yesh!!i'm happy..I JUST HOIPNG THAT THING WOULD NOT BE HAPPEN AGAIN,,cn??think that's all..wait for mon story then..buhbie..till here..ended by[kecik miss him badly]

2007-09-03T17:47:00.000-07:00

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truely
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

How did I get here with you, i'll never know
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

All my life...

2007-08-26T05:50:00.000-07:00

harlu!!!today was a ok2 day cause i in the morning already having a fever but after a bathe i think my body temperature is ok..don't know lah if tomorrow can go school or not..hope can go..after finish my religious class i went back home change clothes then went out back..meet amirah she want to buy pp8 card at central..actually i got call him and ask if he want to hang out together then he say meet at pm ok lor..he went out with hairi and zul..after went to central go to amirah auntie house don't know give what to her..then we go pm meet them..i thought they are not there..suddenly i saw hairi..they was there..nbr mind lah..sit there then go toilet..come back sit..then went to upstair..went back in then go out to 7-11..haha..we go in and out of mac siah..nothing to do..hehe..went to 7-11 buy for them big gulp..give them the water we went to the shop which sell candies..hah..i bought two mentos..eat them up..at last we sit near them arh..talking2..disturb others..haha..i kena bully seh with hairi..tk pe2 aku igt kau bully aku pendek..kau tu tinggi..haha..funny arh disturb him..hairi step mane nye bsr jek..ckp jek nk anu org tpi tk gerak..walu that boi of mine arh..i nbr dare him seh to do..he take the bicycle then let it go..wah my leg turn red seh..my face stare at him for a while suddenly my face cramp..argh!!!lucky he nbr saw..nbr mind lah..i don't mind to..at bout 6.52 i went back home..
hari and him sempat sak nk kcau org..walau..haha..i think they give-up halfway..haha..kcian..i wnet home with amirah..it was fun lah hang out..before go home when we at pm..everybody ask me pe kes sak kau pki WHITEBALCK..i ans jls ke pe..haha..my boi jls arh..i'm emo ler..hehe..ngok lah aku ni sket2 pon belh kuar hang out tk nk ngar org ckp tau..org suroh mkn obat tk nk..org suroh duduk umah rest pon tk nk..degil tul lah aku ni..hehe..tk pe dh biaa..klau lah bsok aku sket aku tetap nk pegi skolah..aku nk ngok spe kcau aku jek..haha..okae lah don't want to talk so much later still got many sotries to tell tomorrow..buhbie..ended by[kecik miss him badly]

2007-08-24T20:00:00.000-07:00

hello..to continue some of the stories again..erm lets's talk bout this week..what day eh..arh klau tk slh gak nye monday..we all go hang out..having fun all the time is what we all wanted..hehe..went to macdonlads first..eat2..then waiting for them to finsh..then zul and uzair come..so we tunggu lah eh..haha..actally plan nk gi carpark umah faizah main catching..but tk jdi..we go hang out bwh blok umah my boi..haha..faizah and lina kena kcau rabak lah..haha..mcm giler lah seh..tk leh angkat ngan faizah nye pekik rase2 bsok telinga boleh expire..hehe..they play cathching i and him just sit talking2..haha..they run like mad..wahaha...!!!giler..fun seh..haha..after a while zul and uzair with rawi came bring ball.they go play football..haha..we girls just chilling out..u kow what right..hehe..smoking lah..hang out like mad..crazy littele peeps like us..haha..at bout what time we going back home..this is the probelm..uzair ez-link lost..walau!!is started like this zul buy mac using uzair ez-link..then zul ask faizah to give him back so faizah give lah..then at one point i think uzair give o someone to hold for it..but i don't know who is it..when we reach my boi block his ez-link was lying on the floor but i don't know who pick it up..uzair salah kn faizah for tking his ez-link actually faizah don't know anything seh..uzair take his bag..faizah told hairi bout this then hairi got mad he ask uzair to check his bag..hairi take out all the things and throw his bag..he really angry lah sey!!uzair really make him angry..then uzair take faizah bag and go to the opposite blok..this time is more worse..uzair and my boi fighting..haish..uzair step man nye besar lah..haha..dh kena sikit beh panggili org suroh sini tpi tk gerak pon..walau!!my boi face really the angry..i try to relax for him but don't know how..yeah!!he send me back home..so if wanted to make him cheer up..i know what to do..hah..lucky me do him happy..ok lah..haha..kae talk bout yesterday..even though it was 4 of us but is like crazy..went to mac again with him,apiq,eza and me..hehe..after eat we went out..actuall we don't want to go to artpark so we cannot decide wheret o go..suddenly my mind say..go to carpark nye last second floor arh duduk2..so they say okae..we went upstairs..apiq make we three like mad..!!!haha..eza and him disturbing me..tickle me everywhere..i like mad girl runnirng away..haha..mentang2 lah i'm the only want shortest among them..hehe..at one point i and him when down..eza was upstairs with apiq after a minute we wnet back but eza shoted our name say that apiq take our bag and run away..we go find apiq like what..haha..at last we found him..then all of us already when down so we sit at rc there got chairs..we vandalise the table haha..talking2 non-stop making fun..!!haha..at bout 5.30 apiq when home so the noise level is a littel bit not to loud..but eza shout was loud ler..haha..eza take a penknife doing on her hand..i nagging at her..haha..but i also wanted to do but he looking at me..so cannot..then he want that penkife but i nbr give to him..i say i nbr do lah..haha..so he nbr disturb me anymore..haish..so the bored!!haish nothing to do.only chat..hmm..kae lah ende by[kecik miss him badly]

2007-08-17T23:51:00.000-07:00

hello..many things has happen this few days..erm talking bout days let's start from the thursday after school i,faizah and aishah went to artpark it was full of fun..but many of them is not there..is only with afiq,hairi,helmi,kamsani,firdaus,zamir and acap..haha..that day afiq be a "ustaz"..he make we three laugh until like a mad..haha..but too bad my boy not there..haish..at about 4 plus we went back home..i went back with the tired face..haha..tired cause of laughing..haha..after went back..i bathe then listening to music at the phone..then while listening lek tertido lak..at the same time i'm worry cause he nbr reply me baq..after wake up it was 7.25..i plan to on the comp at 7.30..lucky me wake up already..i decide to give him the last msg..after a minute there a vibrate..i thought it was him..but it was seha..she say that don't msg him cause the hp was not with him..too bad lah..i say to her okae..she reply me baq asking me not on9 i say to her i want to on9..after that my hp was in silecnce..haha..put my hp near the speaker..he was not on9 cause seha say later he on9 baq..while waiting for him chat with huda..haha helping her out with her history project..it was fun cause that time i have nothing to do at all..suddenly i was shock a loud sound coming from my hp..i forget to silent it..somemore it was near the speaker..adam msg me ler..i thought who seh..chat2..until one point i was a little bit shock lah..haish wat to do my boy has think that way..i just can't do anything for him..haish..then he on9..say helo..then talk2..suddenly he say that he tomorrow not going for school i say why he say"sket ati"..i like too furious so reply him baq what adam has sent me and told me..i ask him is it bout that he say no lah..then he say nothing..haish..after while i was invited to a conversation where ther is seha,shafiq,me and him..chat2..talking nonsense..haha..at that point i fighting with him cuase about someone..he thought that i play tymer cause i always rpt ngan dk tu..we fight for a while..after that i stop and don't want to talk to him..i was crying too bad lah..at the conversation of another want..seha and shafiq was talking bout him..like sje2 kcau..then seha tell me sowie lah if disturbing him..i reply tk pe..then he say tk pyh anye dia..pe dia kesah sak..i like..wah..wanting to stop from crying he making me somemore..i just cannot take it..i quiet..then he sowie..i say tk pe lah..hiash..after a while i need to off9..say buhbie to them and him..i wanted to reply him the last msg suddenly my father was standing behind me..then no chance lah..i just off9..i msg seha to tell him sowie i just cannot reply him baq the last msg..haish..seha ask me if i cn kol him or not if cannot nbr mind..i say if he wants kol my hp..i waited for the kol too..at bout 10 plus he kol me..that time i was just finishing crying for what has happen so my voice different lah..talk and talk..then i ask faizah if she want to conference..she want so she kol me and i conference it..she like mad girl lah seh..haha..talk like crazy mad then she needs to hang up..her sister needs to u..so baq i talk to hi lah..haha..talk then suddenly at bout 12 something faizah call me..at that point she really like a crazy..she be a "ustazah"haha..like real..we both just laugh..haha..then s
he hang up..so baq to we both..walau!!..we talk until 2 plus seh..haha..then we hang up..kae now talk bout friday..haha..in the morning i as badmood seh..like want to cry..argh!!after recess i like crazy..haha..non-stop laughing..after school we went to artpark..now with erlina,hairi ,me,him.uzair..somemore i don't know who are they..making noise at there like fuck seh..haha..the boys playing ball..at bout 6 we went baq home..then faizah take the ball..kira kn confiskate lah eh..haha..then faizah when in to the street soccer to gave back..then when she went out..know what she take hairi cap and we ran away haha..!!!they all kejar kte..haha..we don't give him back lah seh..!!it was fun u know..we like playing catching lah..they all blokcing our way..hahs..after that we go to the carpark hide there for a while..after that we go out..then main kt bwh blok aku jgak haha..walau!!the noise like what siah..haha..but is fun..at that point i nbr play i sit down at the letter box..see them run there lah..haha..him and me sit there watchin while the others running..haha..!!crazy like mad..at about 6 something going to 7..go upstairs..he sent me home..hehe..he SO SWIT!!bluek!!kae lah..finish lah..talk on the sunday..we go to miss nurul wedding wah so fun seh..haha..we go there with huda,lina,aqilah,me,faizah and rozzane..go there take mrt..so fun giler nye..haha..reach there we eat then wait for miss nurul to come..so i and faizah take a chilled behingd the block..we smoke for a while..after that when come back miss nurul came so we took pictures..after finish all..we went to ginza plaza eat again cause wt the wedding we are not full enough ler..hehe..we ate long john..finish then go home..take taxi..walau so rich arh..haha..like real..we went to artpark see the boys..chilled there for how many minutes after that we gone home..really the fun..haha..!!kae lah think that's all..ended with[kecik miss him badly]

2007-08-10T21:45:00.000-07:00

helo..here to update..bout yesterday it was fun..but haven't reach vivo i and faizah like mad siah finding the others where to meet..like fuck siah..half dead already i think haha..after waited for them at the interchange for how many minutes also don't know then we took the bus..30..haha..siting in the bus like mad..haha..making a lot of noise like our own place..the boys cannot duduok diam sak..kejap2 tukar tempat..haha.. there were total of 11 of us..2 was sitting really the front..then 2 girls was sitting in the center..i and faizah was siting 2 seats away from behind..then the others was siting behind..mad seh..haha..but fun..when reach there..argh..that was a really hard time seh..the boys walk so slow siah..mcm ada cina mati kan dpn..siak jek..nk mkn pon nk kena blanja ke pe..haha..really siah i say..having a hard time with them to walk..i think until night we wlak also won't finish..lucky we relax calm down..nbr mind..i think if the boys were in the girsl shoe..wow they will surely bust out want lah..correct..we when to eat long john..haish..after that we went to play water..but i and faizah nbr go and paly..later kena..haha..at bout wat time i gonna go home..so we went home lah..i,him and faizah..haha..take bus 30 agian..wah 3 people can be crazy suah in the bus..faizah laughing lah..haha..is just three like it was 11 seh..hahakz..i sit with him..faizah sit relax one corner..i nbr talked to him too much cause i'm dead sleepy..haha..after one palce we change..keep changing place..at last we sit behind..faizah sit infront of us..haha..he was breng on my lap..haha..after we got out from the bus..we walked home..we went to central but bubble tea..my favourite "OREA CHOCALATE ICE BLENDED"..haha..after that faizah go her way i and him walk together..haha..he send me back home..hmm...lucky my house nobody at home..i went to open the gate to put my things..i know what he wanted..is just he pretended to don't know..haha..at last i gib it.the first one need to pull his hand..then he say another want kae lah i gib..then he say don't have..i like hah..don't have..kae fine i gib..it was 3 times on 1 time..haha..i just couldn't belive it..haha..kae lah..watever it is..he havent't pay me baq..haha..still waiting for it..haha..it was fun but too bad..we went back home too early..next jek lah..haha..kae lah..nothing much to say..haha..ended by[kecik miss him badly]

2007-08-09T03:19:00.000-07:00

hey..argh 3 days not schooling siah lah MENDAK sak..duduk umah..mcm bdk bdh jek..haha..I MISH HIM..he cannot msg me anymore cause his mother ler..wish he got a new hp..haish..common test is coming up..must study really hard..ouh no science..really the hate subject like FUCK!!!evertime sleep in science lesson haha..really the damn bored siah..lucky my maths i can control on it..today just go lepak at the skate park..yesterday we have a great day celebrating national day at school..it was totally fun..the cultural club members got last minute performance..haha..we sabo miss ng then miss ng sabo us back..what ler..but before that we got take our colours award..wah..it was a terrible seh..so the nervous siah..like what..lum naik stage dh mcm2 hal jadi..haha..we all shouted at the behind..shouting like mad people..haha..after finish the celebration..we when to pioneer mall eat..but i nbr eat..no mood that time..when reach artpark lagi no mood i also don't know why..haha..sit there talk2..i actually was really sleppy that time until i lean on faizah shoulder not his..haha..he was like a "monkey" with hairi climbing on the stage..after a while my phone vibrate..my father call..he keep calling me siah..like want to give him a smack..i like fed-up i throw my phone away..he was staring at me once..he ask faizah..arh..i look his face then like argh!!then at 1 plus when home with him,faizah,lina..then whne about to reach under the blok my father suddenly appear..luckily he was walking beside faizah not me..what the fuck siah..saw him..already plan to give something to him then my father when to spoil it..like fuck..eh father FUCK OFF lah!!!mad..after his syarahan..i go bathe then wear clothes to go out..we went to esplanade..i with family,my part-time hehe..no lah is my cuzin..then got my mother sis lah and wat so ever..hmm..somemore what...argh..I MISH HIM!!!!!!!kae lah..finish lah..haha..ended by[kecik miss him badly]

2007-08-01T05:36:00.000-07:00

heloss!!yesterday the day mcm biasa ler..tk de yang difference..is only that faizah has come to school today..so happy to see her come..since she come arh..the day kecoh sak..haha..but ok what kecoh..then u quiet ur self only..haha..just now got it lesson..bored siah..got there but do nothing only go to the microsoft excel to do our work..simple siah..but really i say DAMN BORING!!!ig only for 1 hour ok lah this one is from 2.40 till 4.40..sape sak tk leh tahan..then bsok also got somore..just teacher cried siah..first time see a teacher cry cause of us..after that we all say sorry to her..we do our work together don't know do waht somemore lah..after finish that..i,faizah and erlina got to the petshop near the jp go buy a hamster..go to the shop like what siah..3 dogs was there..they all was running around..what a terrible..we just scared siah..after go there we go 7-11 buy drink..after that when to artpark..hah..saw him at the street soccer..actaully i nbr saw hinm seh..i thought is was hairi seh..then actually got another one more person..is him..haha..today he nbr come..so sad ler..thought he come late but nbr see him arh..so sad..really the sad..what to do seh..really the bored he nbr come..arh why seh??!!!just now like want to cry he nbr come cause don't know why..yesterday he got tell me that he taking out something from his hand ..a sharp thing..but tk kn lah today he cannot come..haish..think later go home try lah to call him if i dare..trying to ask him..why........hope he is not sick if not i also sick..chey!!boring lah..got it lesson lah..really the bored..dk laki semua cabut pe seh..i want to cabut but later they call..lagi ada satu problem sak..ni yg leceh sial..!!boring lah!!!!!!what to write sommore..don't knowwhat to say ler..think what arg he gonna say to me..argh..really siah..think that all..ended by[kecik miss him badly]

2007-07-27T23:07:00.000-07:00

helo!today got nanyang rehersal until 9 somthing like that arh..after that we paln to go to kfc then don't want lah we go to mac..eat breakfast..i eat big breakfast..haha..cause in the morning nbr eat hungry ler..erm..haish..cannot msg him cause my pp8 low..to sad ler..i mish him seh..what to do now..at home boring then want to go out nobody to go with..if i wanted to go with him must ask him first but want to go also cannot cause no money..haha..if got faizah everywhere i can go seh..without her like what seh..argh..damn bored lah..what to do nothing seh..still suspect something from my friend..what wrong i done..tell me the truth don't talk behind me cause one day i will also know what would happen..the way u reacted is what i know now..is only i don't want to let u know that i know what has happen..now is not the time for me to let it of...wait till the time comes..and u will know it..so be prepared to suffer any hurt from what i will say to u..not that i don't want to tell u know..i wanted to but is not the right time..i think wait for faizah to come to school and see what has happen ever since she has nbr come to school..help me anyone..haish..hah..today got chat with one gal hu is seha..fun seh chat with her..share bout him..i ask her if he got talk bout me to her..she tell me got..what it is..he say that he is lucky to get me..i am everything for him..i was shocked to listen to that..hmm..does i mean everything to him..think so lah..watever it is..his mine..haha...what to say somemore arh..erm..kae lah think nothing more to say..ended by[kecik miss him badly]

2007-07-27T07:53:00.000-07:00

helo!today got a bad day for me ler..bout my friends they like what siah..nk kutuk org dpn2 arh..jgn blakang2 arh.kasi org sket ati jek..sape sak tk sket ati bler kau bual psl aku..even though u tried to cover it up u would not get away from it..cause of u i cried..i try to let out my anger by crying..so that i would not hurt u..i just don't want to show my anger to u..cause u would not like it when i am angry..sorry to say that i am hurt right now not because of a realtionship cause of a friend..ever since she hang out with us the situation has lost the way..what i am trying to say is that your attitude make me hate u even more and more..pls don't hurt me anymore..i don't like people hurting me..if lah i were hurting u the same way as u do to me..what were u feel..u feel angry right..see..that a proof..i really don't want to hurt u but u make me wanted to as if like ther something wrong i do to u..i know that i got push u down on the see-saw..but that dosen't meant i do wrong to u..u can take revenge of it what..not the other way round..making people hurt like what..think what i stupid is it cannot think what are u trying to do to me..just wish u can let of me..so that i won't hurt u..if u hurt me i will hurt u if not i won't to..pls lah..pls..i really hope u let me of..i won't hurt u if u wont hurt me kae..kae lah nothing more to say..ended by[kecik miss him badly]

2007-07-26T05:41:00.000-07:00

helo!haha..today got dance practice..actually was 3-4..then miss nurul not happy with our dance..no energy she said..starting from tomorrow i'm and some of the others gonna stand infront..haish..what a bad luck..but nvm..is ok..fine wel..i just hoping we do no want to be ashamed by the others if we got the wrong step..wish we would not get the wrong steps..haish..just now go see him..like mad seh..beat me up until i like wanna cried..he think my hand is a punching bag seh..lagi cket jek nk nanges..but i tried not to..he today got cane by mr singh..got some of the reason why..tomorrow got practice as usual..3.30-5.30..arh boring seh..then saturday got rehersal at 8 in the morning don't know until wat time..bingit arh..fed-up seh..if always like this think gonna quit this up..haish..what to say somemore..today not
much story wanna tell.arh faizah would not be coming to school cause she got sick..arh..boring seh she nbr come..no noise at all..if not her voice only noisy..boring arh..now so many show coming up..we got teachers day somemore to performance..biasa lah kate "popular"..haha..like real only..think so lah eh we popular..haha..prasan only..hehex..arh pain seh my hand..no mood to eat cuase of this hand..until my sis force me to eat but i say ni mood to eat ler..help me how to get rid of this painfull in my hand..damn FUCKING pain siah..nvm lah..haish..just hope the pain can get away..lucky i nbr revenge eh..if not he will do more and more..that is why i kept quiet..don't want to revenge..better don't revenge or else u will get into more trouble..haha..okae lah nothing more to say.ended by[kecik miss him badly]

2007-07-25T05:14:00.000-07:00

WOW!!long time nbr write..haha..got many stories to tell..some bout school,him,my friends and many ler..what to talk..this past few days i and him had be together very well..on saturday we when out..i,lina,eza and dyla when to jrg east to make lina ez-link..so i ask him if he wanted to follow us..he say yes so we meet him up at there..we took neoprints..i enjoy on that day haha..but the things is i kena sabo ler..we wanted to go home..so we took bus 198..in the first palce i wanted to sit with my friend at the back..then they don't allow me to get into the space so i seated infront of them..then faizah call him to sit beside me..we kept quite seh..nbr talk at all..haha..they all at behind making noise and disturbing us..after a while they change palce..sit infront of us..then starting frm that time he start disturbing me..pushing me in lah..until i had been no place..then he suddenly grab my hand..he wanted to hold my hand seh..haha..so i hold lah..i nbr talk..he just say hello!!i just smile..then the stupid crazy them took pictures of us..CRAZY seh they all..haha..then he ask me if we walk can hold or not i say ntah ler..haha..my ans always like that..after we reached there..we get down..he just stare at me..i like haish..so i decided to lah..we walk..paiseh arh..people int he bus all see us..luckily wear home shirt not school..but nvm..is ok..while walking they still can took pictures..kira kan mcm candid pic..haha..fun lah that day..then got another day we got go..on the monday..we make faizah ez-link this time..this tiem i sit we him whan we go and going back..he so swit ler..hehex..in the bus hold my hand then lean on me..then put his hand on mu shoulder..haha..then my cheeks lean agianst his..hehe..swit kn..hehe..bluek!!i wish it could be rewinded like that..or it would be everyday..hehe..i could not forget thta day seh..it always wondering on my mind..we go round the entertainment centre then go the shop there..after that go for a smoke..after we finish..we went back home..that day was a swit day for me sehy..hehe..wish the day can be everyday..haha..hope so lah..hehex..=]..noiwdays we been lpk together..haha..no other place to go we go to artpark..that is our plot..last week was piqah b'dae we sabo each other like mad seh..until the strit soccer there got flour all around..haha..the boys also kena seh..even though they are not involve..haha..good lah..piqah was really happy..haha..we hab fun there..today kecian seh him kena detention..cause of smoking..i and faizah also smoke nothing happen to us..tomorrow he goona get the caning..i'm sad for him..see lah tomorrow if it is public or not..it would be a hard for me to see he got the caning..we can feel the pain even though we are not getting it..haish...what somore to say..boring arh..sleepy seh..haha..kae lah nothing more to say..haha..ending by[kecik miss him badly]

2007-06-21T04:47:00.000-07:00

today practice is like ok lah..but nk kena catch up..nasib i get the steps..left two more day..what to do..haiz..today was nadyra b'dae..happy b'dae to her..we make a surprise party..haha..we enjoy ourselves..sabo each other like mad siah..lucky me tk kena..if not gerenti lekit..cake lak tu dia org kena kn..after eating...then wer sabo..after that..we go relax first then at 3 we start back our practice..funky nutz practice till 3 plus..then me,aishah,huda...go skatepark..instead of me bringing the camera to take picture for nadyra b'dae..we took our own picture..haha..take in the lift lah,at the playground then on top of the skate board there..like mad..before that i saw someone..we was walking towards the carpark..then we saw he and his gang..first i saw his friend..i was thought he was not there..then he appear..he was the last want..haha..lucky he never see me..haiz...but boring too lah..today our 1 mth stead i like no mood siah..haha..don't know why..what to do..haiz..i'm bored..left how many days school gonna open..haiz..i miss school but like don't want to go school..nowdays i also don't why my mood like what..sometimes happy,sad,lonely...haiz..when am i going to top-up!!!i want to sms him..i miss him really like what..argh..feel like want to cry now seh..hmm...what to say somemore..otak blank sak..ended by[kecik miss him badly]

2007-06-19T16:06:00.000-07:00

today wake up at 6 plus..argh tired..not enough sleep seh..need to go practice..9.30 must report there..9 then want to go out..wait for aishah call..wake only my head turning seh..headache..haha..nowdays i'm quite busy nowdays got practice lah..saturday already the competition..haha..sorry to my love..i'm quite busy..no time to layan you..really the sorry..but at least you enjoy your holiday than me..sad..haha..kidding only..bluek..i'm missing him..haha..practice start 9.30 till 10.30..than go for our rehersal..finish at 3..then got practice..argh..tired seh later..haiz..the jyian nite will be on the 7 july..funky nutz will perform our danceworks finale steps..we wanna show to the school that that was the dance we put up on the danceworks finale..that we won 2 nd..the lil nutz will also dance..don't know what lah..the boys..will do the rapping with hafiz..i'm here are just damn bored siah..early in the morning must wake up..i just like want to sleeep back seh..but cannot argh..later i sleep won't wake up want..if wake up i think already late..later kena scolding..haha..nothing much to say..just can't wait for my competition..can't wait for it..i hope lah someone came down to support us..i mean friends or what lah..not parents..haha..i don't want parents to came down lah..hate seh..hope my father work so that they cannot go..haha..good2..haha..think that's all..wait for the next post this afternoon..ended by[kecik miss him badly]

2007-06-19T05:50:00.000-07:00

left how many days gonna open school..damn boring..haiz..but al least leh ngok muke dia..haha..tk tahu pe nk uat seh..i'm too boring..nothing to do..pp8 already low..cannot sms him..like wat seh..argh..just now got practice..we learn new steps..lucky me can get the steps seh klau tk gerenti kena..the lagu very the fast seh..how to catch seh..nvm try harder..to improve..haiz..this saturday our competition..scared seh..wish me luck for that..it's only 7 of us dancing..me,aishah,huda,jason,riddaufhi,hafiz ngan din..actuallu faizah ada but how seh she go KL..then we got blajar baru nye steps..gerenti she cannot..but nvm lah..at least she got dance for the jyian nite..but no her like lonely..she coming back tomorrow..don't know what time..she cannot go for rehersal..haiz..argh..boring..siah..without him my life like quiet..lucky my friend lent me her hp..if not i think gonna be mad..scared to go school..gerenti kecoh rabak sak..haiz..but nvm..what to scared seh..haiz..actually nothing to say but i writing nonsense..haha..what to say somemore..boring arh..talk bout him..talk what..talk bout my friend..nothing to say..arh talk bout my members haha..they are damn crazy..kuang3..haha..haiz..think that all lah..my perut already bunyi...haha..grrrrr!!!!i want to eat you!!haha..talking nonsense..ending by[kecik miss him badly]

2007-06-14T21:12:00.000-07:00

long time never write seh..really the busy arh with my dance practice..it was fun..dis saturday gonna be our competition..good2..hope we can win..yeah..can't wait for it..during this day just bored cause my pp8 has low so cannot msg anyone..including him too..if wanna msg him use my friend hp..got 1 day we never msg each other for that one whole day..i like wat seh..that night like wanna cry..cause i RINDU him..haha..really the miss him..when school gonna open..it so late..bored at home nothing to do..just hang around or stay at home on the computer..today amiirah and aishah came my house..aishah and me do our history project..amiirah came case she was bored..haha..we make teka-teki lah..leh jdi gila..semua lik kul 5.30..pastu me and amiirah go pm to follow her photocopy her result slip..then we go buy food after that go rounding..then i went home..it was really the bored but lucky got the two of them came my house..arh i miss school..i miss him and i miss TABITHA!!!haha..she's my friend when i'm lonely..she likes to make fun and she is enjoyable to be with..i enjoy the time with her..although we are in different class but we can know each other better..haha..love her very the much..who ever dare to disturb her..you gonna get it from me..chey..haha..don't know what to do anymore..this monday mother already got kerja..i can enjoy my day at home..yeah!!!happy siah when i got heard that mother gonna go work..at last i got FREEDOM!!!not like a prison at home..haha..but if go out want to go where..alah faizah go KL..miss her..i cannot see her on wednesday cause we got rehersal for jyian nite..but she don't have..like no mood to go without her..but nvm lah..at least got erlina and aishah..haha..nowdays i'm sick cause my body aching after the dance practice..is not psl dance i think cause we never strech before doing the practice..but ok lah i bear with it..hmm somemore what to say..hmm...RINDU him so much!!!haha..later i gone crazy cause miss him..think there nothing much to say..haha..ended by[kecik miss him badly]

2007-06-09T20:10:00.000-07:00

on the 8 juyne i,faizah and aishah go out at 11..me and faizah waited for aishah down her blok..waiting for aishah lame sak..haha..while waiting me and faizah hisap..5 batang seh..anyak tu..pe nk uat dh addicted..haha..but lucky tk de org nampak..haha..kul 12 aishah turun..haha..lame sak tunggu dia..then we walk..then go central go prime buy sweets for the bbq..we bought three packets of mixed mentos and three packets for strawberry candy..haha..then after that walk go to the plyground near the school..we lepak there first...sampai sane punye lah siang..12 something ampai..start kul 3.30 dtg siang..bvoring dok kt umah kaur arh siang..haha..play and play then we feel hungry siax...go to the kedai but maggie then eat..haha..we sat near the playground there..while eating suddenly we saw iskandar the captain for hiphop..we terkehot then keep away thje food scared later tk kasi mkn..haha..we eat2..then faizah tell me that iskandar was there..in a hurry we kept the food..lucky he never see..he ask us to masuk school..we say later..after finish we go to th school..nobody was there only some of the contemp memebers and rizza..we sit there waiting...after a while tabitha came..haha..we disturb her by saying"tabitha you come on the sunny day"...she then tickle me..we make a loud noise..she disturb me..we both paln ti sabo each other but cannot only a litte bit..cause there were no water bomb..too bad lah..but next time..we play three games..musical chairs,guess and act and dog and bone..it was really fun..after that my grp aishah and erlina grp help to marinate the chicken..after that it was bout 6 plus going 7..then my grp go set set fire..after that we all go take crazy pictures while waiting..after a while iskandar call to eat..we take than sit..eat2 until get full..before that we got scolded by yu ling for not helping them do the bbq..after get scolded we help..then our big bro came...after he eat..he wanted to see us..talk bout the practice..it was on the thurs,fri and sat...in the morning don't noe wat time later iskandar tell...after that we got home...haha very tired siaxx...on the 9 i and my members goin to wild wild wet..it was fun duh...i swim for only 2-3 hrs..cause my head already pusing..at bout 6 they all cahnge..we raeched home bout 8..then he sms me..sms2 after that he ask me to call him..i call lah..but suddenly don't noe wat happen all silent..teruk sak..nothing to talk..i think he get bored he hang up the phone..than i call him baq and say sorry for keeping quiet..than i ask him waht are u doing..so watever suddenly we silent..like we really talking to the wall men..then he hang up cause i was late..i call him baq..say sorry again like wat siaxx..then he say b sok can call agin..i say kk bye..haiz..wat to do..really the boring.."step nak call tapi tk ual" tk ual such a couple..haiz..haha..don't noe what to say anymore..ended by[kecik miss him badly]here are the upcoming pictures..but no picture at the www...